I fell off the wagon.
I was doing so good. Testing regularly, eating right, etc. But the past week I haven’t tested, I haven’t cared much about what I put in my mouth and just kinda let it all go.
I’m not really sure why. I am just bored with it. Yeah that’s kind of a silly thing to say about having diabetes but really, that’s honestly how I feel. It’s not fun and it’s annoying. So as with anything in life that is annoying and not enjoyable, it’s become BORING. I don’t know how else to describe it.
But I also realize that it’s important, for my health, to do what I should do and take care of myself. It just gets hard sometimes. I have to remember that I am actually quite a fortunate person with a lot of positive things around me, and for that reason alone, I need to take care of myself properly. Lately, I keep making excuses.
Today I ran out of Metformin. I should’ve called in the refill a week ago. Did I? Nope. Too busy. Excuses. I took my last pill this morning and now I have to bug J to go out of his way to pick up the prescription that I will call in as soon as I finish this post.
I’ve lost some weight… but I still haven’t started an exercise program. I really need to but again, I’m “too busy” (making excuses) to get it going. Bleh.
Someone give me a good kick in the rear, please. K. Thanks.
Ok, here’s you kick in the butt!!!!!! Do you want to get too sick to see your kids grow up? Do you want to spend years on kidney dialysis? Do you want to start losing body parts? I think not! Get back on that horse, girl! Ok, enough of a lecture. I absolutely understand how boring this life can be. It gets to be a craving for something bad doesn’t it? I’m so tired of thinking about every damned thing I put in my mouth! But the alternative is too awful to contemplate. I personally want to be able to play with my grandchildren, not sit in a wheelchair and watch them play. You have alot of years of child rearing to go. You need to be able to do that and be the best mother to your kids. You can’t do that sick. Now, quit beating yourself up about it and remember tomorrow is a clean slate.
*boot*
As they say at the weight watchers message boards, “You know what you weren’t doing and you know what you need to do. Don’t beat yourself up, just get back on that wagon. Fall down 10 times, get up 11.”